I have so much to be happy for

I have so much to be happy for. Regardless of what I might think sometimes, that life can be hard and I don’t have everything I would like, I’m still so utterly grateful for all the things that I do have in my life. Sometimes I just try to think about all the things that make me happy and focus on all the things that I love about my life.

As everybody else, I have had some ruff patches in my life, but apparently nothing I could not handle. I have always had support from my friends and my family and sometimes I thought that I was never going to get out of the ruff patch, but then, all of a sudden, something amazing would happen and I could carry on.

I feel as though I have to mention on particular thing that has been a great asset for me, and a great friend when I needed it the most. Bamse was amazing. Even if I there were times when I was soooo mad at him I still loved him so much. He was the best thing that I had in my life many times. He was always there to comfort me in the ruff patches and he was something that I always needed to do, he made me stay sharp and healthy. I’m so lucky to have had a friend like him in my life <3

I do believe that it is good to always reach for something more. I don’t think that you should “settle” for thing, I think what has driven me in to being the person that I am is that I always wanted more. But I think that we sometimes forget that we have accomplished so many great things already and we forget to be thankful for them. I’m going to try and be more happy and more satisfied. 

Dreams that I wish where already true.

Hi and hello again.

Life is just, awesome really. I have had a bit of a “hard” time these last weeks, hard in that sense that I don’t always feel that I’m doing something good. I hate feeling like I’m “no use”, it’s one of the worst things ever. I just want to feel that I’m doing something that can benefit someone else.

I talked to Tobias yesterday about that the next job that I take in the future has to be my brave step, I need to do the brave thing and do what it is that I really want to do. I love to work in IT and help organizations and companies with their problems and such, but what I really want to do in the future is to help people who are less fortunate then myself.

One thing tough… I thought about what I have done so far in my dream to actually help others. Sadly the list is very short. Therefore I did something this week that I thought of doing for a long time, I did something as simple as signing up for ActionAid and becoming a donor for a little girl I Zimbabwe. It’s not much, but it’s something and I figured that I needed to start somewhere. I need to take bigger steps in the future but this is something that is good to start at.

I need to figure out how I can take this next step and maybe try to make connections to people who are already helping others. Helping others for me can include a lot of things and I just hope that I can make a big change for a lot of people someday, more than just sending money, I hope that I someday have the possibility to help people to feel that their life’s in some way is a bit better. 

I hope that I can be that person someday not too far from now.