Hi,
down below you will find a lot of spelling misstaks, but that is simply because I don't have word to help me this time.
My first week in Stockholm is done. It feels good to have done the first one. But, it also feels very har and strange not to be at home i norrland. But most of all, everything down here is just kind of stressed, which i thought i would be fine with, but it's taking a toll on me.
I'm trying not to run in the subway, but i do.. every day.
The job. it is hard, but mostly because it dosen't seem like they know what to do with me. It's a lot of responsiblity that i have to take myself, and that is fine. It's just that i would be nice to actually be given a task to do.
I have been going with some people on meetings and stuff like that, which i really appriciate because i just learn so much from it. I just really wish that i hade more stuff to do, more stuff that i could "get done".
I understand that i have to "learn" the product and that i can do that just from taking stuff down from our own system and just sit there and read and learn, but it gets boring when i have to do that all day...
Today was so slow... i think time stood still for like 4 hours. But something good about today. I talked loads to the people at work today, mostly the once around me and i got some interesting things from them. It helps that they are great people.
I have a hard time with getting in to the "cool gang" i kinda always do. I kinda feels like you have to pass some kind of "test" to hang out with them. I mean, they are nice, but yeah, i just feel stupid around them. i wish i didn't.
Hopfully this will all have gone away in a few weeks.. or months... And then, i will love it here! But i think that what has to change is me. How i see this, how i choose to see this and how i will try to learn from this rather then letting it defeat me. i can choose to make this something good, and i'm really am going to try.
