Do you ever have that feeling when you are looking at all of the photos of yourself on facebook or anywhere else - is that really me? do i really look like that?

For some resaon, and I have no idea why, I do this pretty often. Like all the time actually. Look at pictures I mean, and sometimes it's like I'v been looking to long and I start to wounder who that girl next to my friends is.... Hmm. Well, I guess I'm wierd, bur I allready knew that ;)

I'm soon going back for a visit to Cambrigde. It's going to be so great, I really miss loads of people! It's going to be 6 days of non-stop hugs! So, it will be great. I miss Maya and Joanna so much, I kinda wish that they always would come live close to me, wherever I might be. Those two have forever earnd a place in my heart.

Once Joanna said that she wished that Maya would be as brave as me when she grew up that she went to live in another country, i pointed out to her that her own mom alread did that, years before I did. But I told that if Maya ever wanted to come live in Sweden, she would be more then welcome, and the same thing goes for her.

Change is good.

I'v been home for more then 2 months now. It's a long time, but it feels like i only arrived home to Sweden a week ago. I haven't forgoten anything about my 5 months in England, but at the same time, it feel so unrealistic that I actually was there. How did that even come about?





How can so much change in just a year? (I'm getting a bit philosopical) ((OMG my Spelling is bad...)) I'm not the same one that I was. Of coruse I am, but like Mairon said, when she got back from Arizona, nothing had happend back here in Sweden, but she had changed so much. That's how I feel. And I know that me changing is a good thing, not a bad one. Changed is good -  Always.







I think I feel lost because of many resaons, but mostly for the same reason that all of my classmates have. We are done with our kandidets soon. Real soon. That freaks me out, badly. It's the change thing. And as I said, change is good, but scary. At least that is how I feel.  The problems that I have is deciding what to do in the future, I have so many options, that's why it makes everything so hard, my problems are luxurys, but non the less, problems.







I wish I could stop and looking at them like problems, and see them like oppertunites instead. It's a better word, and therefore much more simple to handle. The thing is, I allready have so much good in my life. I have the best friends that you could possible think of, not a lot of people can say that. I know they got my back, what ever might happen. My family is the weirdest every, but still a reamarkeble one. They would all do anything for me. Just that, is great, and it makes my life fantastic. So what is this agoning feeling in me of wanting more?  - Stay tooned